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I live!

And I’m now under my “real” name.  It feels weird to make the change from posting as “Lori” versus posting as “Rhyssa” since I’ve been using my online alias for so many years.  Plus the whole starting on the internet (in gaming, no less) back when keeping your anonymity was the way to go.  Along with using the same online name as a way to identify people across games.  I haven’t particularly hidden that Lori = Rhyssa for years now, but for some reason, I just haven’t made the switch here, on what should be my personal site to showcase my art and writings.    I don’t know what’s prompted me to make the change today, but there you go.

Hi, I’m Lori and this is my (woefully under used) website. /waves

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How pithy of me.

Anyways, I’m getting tired of my own laziness and need to get my act together soon. I want to finish customising a template for the site, I have several ideas for art projects I want to start, I need to finish editing a new theme for the One Manga Forums so that can be made active. Just so many things I want to do but I’ve been too darn lazy to even start. Time to change that.

Fun game night

So some friends had a “Nightmare on <their> Street” gaming night for people to just drop in and play board games.  The idea was to play Halloween or spooky themed games but since the husband isn’t much of a gamer, we decided to pull out something more generic and not as complicated to play.  Which was fine for me, it’s been a while since I’ve done any tabletop gaming myself.

We started with a game called “King of Tokyo” which is a mix of king of the hill and last monster standing game.  It was rather fun and I won 2/3 games, the last one with only 1 hp left.  Then we moved on to “Ticket to Ride” which I’ve played before but the husband hasn’t.  It’s one of those game where trying to explain the rules makes it sound so confusing but once you start playing, it makes total sense.  The husband did pretty good for his first time playing, coming in second and finished two points ahead of me.  I would have won if people hadn’t started blocking random routes meaning I couldn’t finish one of my tickets.

It was an enjoyable time and I had a lot of fun seeing some friends I haven’t in a long time.  Plus the husband had a good time doing something that is usually a “me” thing.

Gaming and the Never Ending Story

I’ve been thinking about stories lately, mostly how they end.  I’m currently reading the Malazan Books of the Fallen series by Steven Erikson (fantastic series!) and am about half way through the planned 10 books now.  The ending will be a complete unknown because it’s not been written/published yet, so I have something to look forward to.  As well, one of my absolute favorite manga series, Fullmetal Alchemist, is obviously coming to an end soon as well.  I read the scanlated chapters so I’m current on the story through the recently released chapter 98 now, and Arakawa is definitely starting to bring events to the ultimate conclusion soon.  It’s a fantastic story (and well worth the read, not the least because her art is extremely high quality as well) and while the overarching storyline has always been there, seeing everything start to come together has been a trip. Continue reading

The PvP Files: Death and Consequences

Posted today over at Grimwell Online.
Why death penalties are necessary for PvP.

Death penalties should be seen as a necessary part to both PvE and PvP, providing a sense of consequence to ingame actions. Granted, dying is not always the result of bad player decisions; mob respawn, runners bringing adds, overpulling, etc. can all lead to player deaths. Without any penalty, players would simply be able to suicide run their way through content. Having at least a minimal penalty helps teach the player to be a bit more careful in the future. Yet, games that have little or no penalty for dying are generally seen by a majority of players as more “fun” or “better” to play. Why is this?  Continue reading

Saying Goodbye

How do you say goodbye to a part of your life? How can you do it when it feels like your heart is being ripped from your chest?

I had to do that tonight. I had to let go and say goodbye to my precious baby dog. After 9 1/2 years, I’ll never again see Orion waiting at the door for me when I get home from work. I’ll never again give him a used tissue to eat (hey, it was his choice). I’ll never have him jump up on the bed to lay on my legs at night, before he hops off to sleep in the bathroom. I’ll never again get to scratch his chin or hit that perfect spot on his ears to make him moan. He’ll never again howl at the sirens going by outside.

I feel shattered right now. I know some would say it was only a dog, but he was my baby. To him, I was the alpha dog, and he gave my husband and me so much unconditional love it was unbelievable. Even at the end.

About 2 weeks ago, I noticed he was acting a bit lethargic. But then we realized he wasn’t eating as much, and drinking a lot more water than usual. This past Saturday, we took him to the vet to get checked out. Chest x-rays were taken, and everything looked just fine, except for what seemed to be some slight congestion in his upper lungs. That would explain the coughing, of course.

They drew blood to have a full workup done, and we took him home to wait the results on Monday. He was still moving around fine, but he just wasn’t acting right. The test results came back perfect, except for a mildly elevated thyroid. The vet had my husband bring Orion in for another blood draw to do more detailed thyroid tests, and gave us some antibiotics for the coughing. Those seemed to help some, although forcing pills down your dogs throat isn’t fun.

Still, he just wasn’t eating. This from a dog who made begging a fine art, giving the most soulful and hopeful looks if you so much as glanced his way. He was a polite begger, too, and always assumed he’d get the last bite of my sandwich or lick the bowl out after I had ice cream. How could any resist those eyes?

The vet was concerned enough about the not eating to have us go to the local emergency vet clinic. If nothing else, they could hook him up to an IV for fluids, and try to get his nutrition levels up more. The doctor there wanted to take an abdominal x-ray, and also took another chest film. The difference was incredible. It wasn’t just a little bit of his lungs, it was all of his lungs now. Outlined in globs of white, right there on film. His liver was also enlarged and probably the original source.

This just happened so fast. Only 5 days from when we took him to the vet, two weeks max from him showing signs of illness. It’s just not right!

No matter how much I tried to deny what she told us – “I’m 90% sure it’s cancer” – I just didn’t want to accept it. This was my baby, how could this happen to him? He’s been the most perfect dog, never giving us a bit of trouble (not even with his seizures). Why did this have to happen to him? But seeing him, and seeing tired and weak he was, knowing that he didn’t even have the strength to walk, just forced me to accept the truth. It was time to say goodbye and end any suffering he had. He’d given us nothing but love for all his too short life, it was time to return that love at the end in the best way possible.

We will always love you, Orion. You really were the best dog ever, fuzzy pup.

Orion the Star Hunter

Orion the Star Hunter

Orion the Star Hunter, October 24, 1995 – June 22, 2005